Yup, more than my mortgage payment. Crazy... I cannot believe 12 shots costs $1586.77.
Here's what a month's worth of medication looks like. These are the cartridges that get filled into the injector. The needles get attached after these suckers are in. Anti-climatic if you ask me.
Now I wait for my (free) $1500 "Rebismart autoinjector" to get the job done for me.
After I collected my drugs, my sharps container, bought a lock box for the fridge (because, you know, my kids are crazy, and would somehow find a way to inject themselves with MS drugs), I sat for a few minutes in the parking lot. A non-descript plastic bag held all this stuff. I looked like any other shopper (except maybe to the woman staring at me as I discussed syringe disposal with the pharmacist and how big a sharps container I would need).
It's all unpacked now - all my new gear. I took a warm bath and had a good cry. Each day that passes brings a new level of realness to this. And right now it feels like a sucker-punch to the guts. You know... that slightly home-sick feeling of "how things used to be." Knowing that my reality - now sitting there in the fridge - is about to start. It is a bittersweet feeling - I am choosing to do this - to take these drugs. Choosing to feel scared and worried because of it. But I know I have to hold onto the hope that somewhere along the road, these drugs will help me.
And now - this lady is going to have a glass of wine!