Let me preface this post by saying that I am not religious. I do not go to church or follow any religious script. And if you feel the same, push the potential cheesiness aside before we go any further.
I do, however, consider myself to be spiritual. To believe in something "higher" or "beyond" us. I don't know why, and I can't say how. But I know I believe. I'd like to think there is something or someone out there helping me, guiding me, even protecting me.
I have felt this feeling before - after Jack was born 5 years ago. I was 2 weeks post-partum and hemorrhaging, with no pulse, and unconscious. Raced to the ER, it was as if time stood still. My body stopped bleeding, my tiny baby slept peacefully while I had surgery - it honestly felt like divine intervention. Not necessarily God-like, but there was something there. Something so vivid I can recall the exact feeling years later.
And now, to this day, I can feel it again. Some invisible protection telling me I can do this, fight this, and stay strong.
I saw this necklace weeks ago, told myself I didn't need to buy it. Didn't need to spend money on it. Then, I kept seeing this necklace. I was drawn to it - over and over again - by pure coincidence. So, today I bought it. I felt like this force I have been feeling for years needed a personification. Something I could grab and hold.
Here she is - my guardian angel...