I have a fantastic group of online Mommy friends. They get to hear me rant and whine and vent. Especially now. But you know what is so fantastic? They listen, console, (virtual) hug, and offer advice that is do-able and works. I have only met a few of them in real life, but the entire group of then - more than a hundred - have helped me more than I can say.
When I vented about my current mind-frame, and how alone and sad I was starting to get, many of them suggested that perhaps I was appearing to be "coping too well" to the outside eye. Maybe it was time to share some of my other, perhaps less-pleasant, feelings.
So here goes...
I feel alone.
I feel sad.
I feel scared.
I feel stressed.
I wish I had more offers of help. Even a phone call or email to see how I am doing. A card in the mail or a visit for coffee and cake. I love each and every person who is in my life, and I want them to know how I am feeling. I know that many friends and family will not know what to say or do to make me feel "better," but that's okay. Say and do whatever you want. We can talk about other things. We can just hang out. It can be 5 minutes or 5 hours. It all helps. And it all makes me feel more human and more happy. And right now, anything that enduces happiness is a good thing.
People - I miss you. Let's have some time together.